Trust

"Say: Beware, O people of Baha, lest the strong ones of the earth rob you of your strength, or they who rule the world fill you with fear. Put your trust in God, and commit your affairs to His keeping. He, verily, will, through the power of truth, render you victorious, and He, verily, is powerful to do what He willeth, and in His grasp are the reins of omnipotent might." -Baha'u'llah

This morning, I woke up with this quotation in my head. Although I didn't realize it was this one, I just had the second sentence in my head but couldn't remember where it came from. It almost felt like I had sort of made it up from combining other quotes.
I wonder who the strong ones of the earth are, at least in my life. Recently, so many people have been telling me that I'm so strong. But then I look at the things I have encountered over the past two years and am somewhat amazed. It's interesting that we can amaze ourselves. It's truly the power of divine assistance. But even, despite all this strength I'm trying to have, there are just sometimes that you want to let go, and you need a place or people that you're okay letting go around. That you trust them to let you let down your armor, take off that thick shell that isn't a shell of pretending, but the shell of protection. God has created us as incredible beings, in a world where we are to develop ourselves spiritually as we go through this physical world. But sometimes, I just need to stop the forward motion and just be. Just for a moment, a night, a brief time. And just feel loved.
And so this morning, as I lie awake in bed thinking of all the things going on right now, the things needing to be done, to be taken care of, to settle before I leave for the break, I realized that it's okay that I'm tired, that I'm not sure what to do next or where to start, but that if I put my trust in God and put in the effort, it will all work out according to His Will. And for that, I am so grateful.