What a difference sleep makes!

I feel like I'm slowly waking up to life again. Over the past 4 nights, I've actually slept for the first time in months probably. I didn't really how terrible my sleep was, and how much that was affecting me, for the past few months. Only now, with a good mattress and a good sleeping pill, am I actually resting at night. I feel like a veil is starting to be lifted from my view, and I can actually exist again!

I've exercised every day since Saturday, I went to yoga today, I'm doing my stretches and exercises, and I'm starting to have energy again.
I'm dealing with the anxiety that if I get up out of bed, I won't necessarily get worse or sick again. I've been living under this constant fear for the past few months that if I get up, I'll only feel worse. It's been coming true until the past few days. I used to be scared that anything I did would only make me feel worse and hurt more.

The funny thing is that I didn't realize how much pain I was in until we gave it that name. I used to just feel miserable all the time, not really knowing why or what I could do about it. Now I can say, "Ok, right now my stomach hurts, my knee hurts, and my shoulders hurt, but it'll pass, especially if I put heat on it." Maybe my hands hurt, because they're not used to being used, but once I develop my muscles again, I might be able to write notes during an hour class and not be in utter pain and misery afterward. I won't have to give myself pep talks to walk across the house!!

I'm starting to have to purposely slow myself down, so I don't over do it, instead of forcing myself to get going.
Keep the healing prayers coming, I still need them, but there is light at the end of the tunnel!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!