Up for a breath

This afternoon I stopped to breathe for a moment. NEBYfest was amazing last weekend. Nothing like I thought it would be, very very intense, but wonderful all the same. Lots of wonderful music, old friends, new friends, new ones becoming old ones, and a cash register ... all good things. I made it home in time to finish off a homework set and leave again. I'm back again, only to leave in just 2 days to go home for a wedding and brief Ayyam-i-Ha celebrations with the family and "family" before heading back here to Ithaca to begin the Fast! It's a whirlwind few weeks. I've got these 2 or 3 songs stuck in my head, and I can't get enough of them. And sadly, my iPod is pretty much dead. It only works when connected to a power source, which means that basically I only get it in the car. Now, whether to revive the poor dying thing or just replace it, I can't decide. But the week I want my music the most, I don't have it. So I just go on with the music in my head.
Today, the sun is shining in Ithaca, and it's somewhere around 40 degrees. It's amazing how quickly the snow comes and goes. Just 7 days ago, I was practically snowed in. Now, only a few inches remain on the ground. I keep thinking, "silver white winters that melt into springs" from Sound of Music. I've never really witnessed that transition. This is going to be fun :).
Every since leaving NEBY, I haven't been able to find my head, as odd as that sounds. I think it was probably the combination of the lack of sleep and the rush of being surrounded by Baha'i youth, but I just don't feel the same. I don't feel like I've really re-entered life here in Ithaca, even though I'm going through the motions. Maybe it's just because I keep leaving or preparing to leave. Though, for the sake of my homework and classes, it'd probably be good for me to snap out of this quickly.
"I want to feel like the missing puzzle piece of something that's real."